Yeah, it’s like today–birds chirping, sun beaming, storm cloud looming and rain pouring. Conflicting emotions are something we are used to. Current update…we are where we are. It’s hard to give a positive or negative outlook, because it is just kind of what it is.  

I know, I know….it sounds cryptic.  Here’s the low down…we’ve been rejected–again (please don’t ask us to sound more positive, it is a true statement and we own it.). In the last two months we thought we were matched, to not having a match, to questioning that match, to walking away from that same match, to having a previous “potential match” resurface, to having a unique and unexpected “potential match” come about. We’ve read at least two to three more profiles in the last few weeks.  We have had opportunities resurface, but they haven’t seemed to go anywhere.

The conflicting thing…how do we feel about it all?   Kids having safe and loving homes is ALWAYS the best thing (and that is far more complicated than you know and understand). But that doesn’t mean that we don’t become frustrated or sad.  See I’ve learned that feeling hopeless at times doesn’t mean that I’m not faithful. As an English teacher, I understand that it sounds like an oxymoron.   I’m not currently optimistic, but I still remain faithful–not so much in a specific outcome, but in the fact that I will be where I am supposed to be (and let me tell you, I don’t assume that is left to mere circumstance).

So this is where we are…not hopeful but very faithful. Pretty simplex?

~Chelsea